A soft gleam of light directs a bedeviled mind. I feel an onshore breeze and sense the water's deep. Perhaps only here a moment's peace I'll find. Once upon a time when true desires weren't crimes, I recollect a life when innocence was mine. I'm off the fence, but I don't the end. I've stayed bewildered for so long. I couldn't opt for wrong or right if I tried. Back and forth, year by year, questions with no answers followed by anxious tears. What am I? I realize it's a wonder that I am still alive. Half a life, petrified, on which path will I ultimately decide? May I enjoy it while it lasts.